bye Ramadhan.

bonjour,

time to say goodbye to Ramadhan and hello to Syawal...

the Satan also has been released... -.-

but don't let them fool us...

let's keep our virtue strong... :)

many things happened this Ramadhan...

none of that i regret but i wish to make things better...

i've learnt that old folks also despite they are filled with Islamic knowledge, they are still not power through it yet...

i can see that some of them still mix up Islamic studies with something mystical...

it seems that some of them learn Islamic education just on surface and without deeper investigation...

let's learn from previous generation for a better generation...

i'm also trying to be a better Muslim, Insyaallah...

xoxo

homecoming -.-

bonjour,

homecoming didn't seem great so far...

i can't wait to return Shah Alam...

back to my everyday routines there which are much nicer...

too many pressure here, i can't handle it anymore...

so this Eid i don't do any preparation...

not in the mood since everybody is still in negative vibe...

faster come Eid, i wanna escape from this house ASAP -.-

xoxo

me? cooking?

bonjour,

i think it's time for me to learn cooking...

well, i'm not going to cook Malay dishes yet because it's quiet difficult...

i may start with my favourite food which are pasta and lamb based food...

pasta is pretty simple to cook, somehow i never learn how to do it because it's always my late mum who cooked it...

gotta put lots of cheese and tomato and the taste will be superb!

as for the lamb based food, well it's hard to find lamb here around Kota Bharu...

at Tesco sometime they only sell lamb shoulder...

i don't want the shoulder i want the whole meat...

i guess Malays don't really eat lamb that much even the tenderness and the juiciness are delicious!

i'm gonna take my time to learn cooking...

i'll try my best because i love to eat as well :D

p/s : orang cakap nak ambil hati suami dengan masakan kenalah belajar memasak dari mak mentua ;)

xoxo

-the last lecture-

bonjour,

i've just watched this inspiring video...

and i know most of people may not want to watch it maybe because it's quiet a long video and it's not something that involve entertainment...

but all of us should learn something from it...

through this video i can seem to relate myself to Randy Pausch...

when my late mom was sick, i can saw she has no spirit to live...

she knew that she's getting worse but she just sit there and did nothing...

and all other family members were supporting her depression...

i admitted at that moment i was like "WTF is wrong with you people! you are only giving her a negative vibe!"

we as a healthy person should teach her on how to move on, how to lead live properly and made everyday count before she got worse...

we should helped her to smile, laugh and able to do everyday routines without any worries...

but no, people back home was like "kesian kat mak. biarla dia duk uma tido. dia penat"

they came to our house and hospital giving a sad face because my late mum looked sad, and which could make her even more sad!

and now she's sleeping for good, and not waking up at all... owh you like that now???

yes i know death is not our business, it's all up to Allah...

i never blame Allah for taking her, i redha...

i'm just telling you the process of living live when we are still breathing...

and how people react negatively when our live is getting worse... that's not helping!

as we live, make it count, appreciate it, breathe as much as you can and pray a lot...

please, people take away this type of mentality from our community...

the world need more positive people...

xoxo

midterm exam -.-

bonjour,

i've got an exam tomorrow morning...

damn you exam! you take away all the joy -.-

tak suka le sume orang busy...

exam and chores make people forget how to look deeper into this beautiful life...no fun!

let it finishes ASAP and then i just want to relax...

will be going home soon, don't know if i should be trilled or not... hurm...

so i better plan something good for post raya celebration... ;)

till then all the best to all who are taking exam!

xoxo

owh challenges!

bonjour,

a week had passed since i updated my last post...

not in a mood to update my blog due to overwhelm feelings these few days...

i'd just got hit by a car...

Alhamdulillah i'm doing fine and only the bumper of my car was cracked...

that was my first time got hit by a car...

plus it's my new car, my very first time owning a car... (sentimental value)

a bit down when i thought about my late mom's last gift...

nowadays, i feel like a there's a huge responsibility on me to make sure that everything has to be in order...

when i got hit, i felt disappointed because things were not in order anymore...

sorry Mak, adik dah drive elok2... orang tu emergency break and hit me...

luckily the guy who hit me was 100% taking his responsibility...

i was truly touched by his responsible action...

Allah still loves me... He had helped me... He saved me...

He made a small challenge to me and i had to deal with it...

He didn't give me a huge accident and who knew i'll be dead and gone by now...

Alhamdulillah... i'm blessed...

xoxo

do you know?

bonjour,

i found this info on my friend's status...

and i was amazed...

Tahukah anda; bumi dilindungi oleh medan magnet yang sangat kuat dan menjadikannya mustahil bagi pesawat angkasa lepas untuk kembali semula ke Bumi kecuali melalui satu ruang selebar 2 kilometer yg hanya terdapat di Palestin, tempat berlakunya Isra' Mikraj...perkara ini disembunyikan oleh NASA selama ini..begitu juga perihalnya dengan laungan azan yang sememangya dapat didengari di angkasa lepas...Subhanaallah!

Subhanaallah...

xoxo

sahur...

bonjour,

i've missed sahur last night...

please wake me up this morning...

if not my stomach will grumpy the whole day...

second day is coming... :)

xoxo

the same...

bonjour,

things are still the same...

no progress than before...

how i'm tired of this...

tired of being the only one who fight...

it just not right anymore...

i should just stop trying so hard...

ya Allah, please make me strong...

xoxo