and then i realize...

bonjour,

and then i realize it's my first birthday without my mum...

she's been there for me up until i was 20 years and 11 months old approximately...

and then she left me for good...

my neo was her last gift for me...

i'll take care of it, don't worry...

sorry, i'm not able to take you on a ride with my neo...

you were very ill already at that moment...

i'll keep your spirit and dreams inside of me...

thanks for introducing me to this world...

i'm 21 and i'll survive...

xoxo

bahagia :)

bonjour,

kebelakangan ni terasa bahagia...

bukannye tak ada masalah langsung...

bukannye tak ada terasa hati dengan orang...

hormon pun tak betul langsung sekarang...

tapi cuba hiraukan benda negatif...

cuba tidak bagi perhatian kat benda yang tak sepatut bagi perhatian...

kalo ada gundah gelana, cepat2 tolak ke tepi...

sebab saya nak bahagia...

seminggu lagi ada peperiksaan besar...

risau, stress memang ada...

rindu kat mak apatah lagi...

tapi cepat2 alih perhatian dari perasaan tu...

minggu ni banyak hal kena selesaikan...

banyak duit juga keluar nak bayar macam2...

tapi tak mahu anggap macam beban...

kalo tak memang akan murung...

saya nak bahagia je...

bahagia dengan keluarga...

bahagia dengan awak...

bahagia dengan rakan-rakan dan semua orang...

so jangan ganggu saya tengah berbahagia ini...

:)

xoxo

why so loud??

bonjour,

i'm in my room alone now...

and it was raining heavily!!

the thunders are so loud!!

why so loud?? i'm scared =_="

they make me awake from my sleep...

the lightning is everywhere...

i'm scared to open up my windows and doors...

now the thunder is roaring again!!

why so loud??

make it stop, Ya Allah...

xoxo

Pretty Girl Rock :)

bonjour,

i wanna praise myself tonight...

make myself feel good, just for tonight...

so please don't call me perasan... ;p

All eyes on me when I walk in

No question that this girl's a 10

Don't hate me cause I'm beautiful

Don't hate me cause I'm beautiful

My walk, my talk the way I dress

It's not my fault so please don't trip

Don't hate me cause I'm beautiful

Don't hate me cause I'm beautiful

xoxo

nevermind...

bonjour,

you have a strong heart, hidayah...

no matter how many people push you aside, you are gonna survive...

p/s : Sampai masa tibanya waktu, redup hati kaum berdua, bila dua jasad bersatu, hidup mati jadi bersama.

xoxo

courtesy?

bonjour,

i eat a lot lately... puff!

maybe it's because i get tired easily...

i hope i don't put on some weights...

if not i can't fit in new dress to the dinner :P

and recently i observe that there's lack of courtesy here...

every where i go i usually invite others to come along with me...

even if they have stuff to handle, and it happens that i want to settle some stuff as well at the same place, i do offer a ride...

*alang2 dah nak ke satu tempat

if i wanna have lunch, i invite them again...

it's up to them if they wanna follow or not...

but deep inside of course i wanna accompany...

it's quiet pathetic to eat alone sometime...

but what about them?

they never offer anything...

they never know if i already ate or not, they just go out and eat among themselves...

*roomate ke mcm ni? hurm...

after all the courtesy that i have showed, that's how they repay me...

we all know that some time even we already knew if that person has eaten, we still asked them just to be polite...

*xpela, xnak ajak pegi makan or any event pun, sape la saya...

i guess, enough of good deeds until now...

they won't be there through hardship and happiness...

grow up please... you are not a kid anymore...

i guess i handle stuff on my own next time...

don't have to wait for them to accompany me...

this week or maybe next week i have to go to the post office to renew my license...

i'll go there alone...

xoxo

fairy tales ~

bonjour,

life is not a fairy tales...

but still i want a happy ending...

we can still dream about it...

and make it as close to the fairy tales as we can...

there's nothing wrong with that aite...

i'm feeling content... :)

this few days had been wonderful...

got to watch Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa...

and the most surprising thing was getting early birthday gift!

thanx comot! :D

today we met again *loving it!

and we went to a wedding reception...

nice one! love the setting so much :)

here are few pictures i snapped during the event...

i'll upload other pictures in facebook soon...

the internet is so fucked up right now...

couldn't upload in FB just yet...

mood: happy :)

xoxo

i made you a billionaire?

bonjour,

as i was going through Yahoo! home page...

i realized there's an article about World's Billionaires 2011...

guess what? the owner of my favorite fashion line was one of them!

omg! *tetiba excited :P

i'm surprised actually because the owner of the old fashion line such as Chanel, Prada or even Louis Vuitton don't make a cut on the list...

well as you can see Amancio Ortega do have other businesses as well...

i could say i shop a lot at ZARA...

love the clothes so much!!!!!

last time, i bought a blazer and a sling bag...

*lame plak rasa tak shopping sana

every penny i invest on the clothes basically goes to this guy's account huh...

well good job on the design! i can't help buying them :P

xoxo

:)

bonjour,

thinking of this experience makes me smile every time :)

xoxo

being me is complicated +_+

bonjour,


got this messed up feelings...

thought today will start it off good...

a piece of attention won't do harm...

tough to get one, it's not about me anymore i guess...

try to smile and be nice to all people...

don't know if they see it and appreciate it...

i thought i've tried to be the best...

i don't know why my best always doesn't enough...

or perhaps people just ignore it...

things are different now...

i don't know who i can proof myself anymore except to me...

try to be a good daughter, cousin, niece and girlfriend...

erm... why things have to be so tough...?

maybe it just me...

i'm that complicated and thinking too much...

sorry for being protective and for taking care too much...

i guess i'm not ready to lose anything after losing her a month ago...


xoxo

p/s : i think i'm about to skip the 12 pm class... *overwhelmed

long day! :/

bonjour,

today is a hectic day for me! like serious s***!

i still have to continue another tasks tomorrow...

they have to be finished by tomorrow because i have to return to shah alam in the evening...

all these works really got me dizzy +_+

as i got home, i found out he tagged me with this GA...

but as i was updating about it just now, the GA had been closed...

actually i had published the post and when i was a bout to drop my link, the GA was closed...

damn, i was close to win a purse...!

i'm looking forward to have a new purse right now...

i guess i have to search for a new one on my own then :( *tak ada rezeki

as for now, i need to take a rest after a looooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnngggggggggg day...puff!

toodles~

xoxo

i want money!!! :/

bonjour,

i'm so bored now...

i don't have mood to study...

then i started to do things that i'm good at...

counting money!

the sad news is i have little money to count :(

serious shit, if UiTM allow me to work part time, i'll work... (yeke?)

well, that's kinda show how much i want money...

i only have money to buy basics things lately...

i haven't shop things for myself, not even things that a woman "requires"... ;)

little money can make me unhappy sometime...

luckily, i passed all three papers during trial exam last week...

at least there is still chance and hope for me to apply for study grant...

if i get this study grant i can save at least RM1+++ because i don't have to pay for external exam papers...

i hope i'll get it, i'll keep my fingers cross +_+

money money, please come to me =_=

i wanna go to sleep and wake up with money all over my bed...

well, it's only a dream...

xoxo