P.O.S.I.T.I.V.E

bonjour,

wow! this is going to be a hectic week for me...

too many plans have been discussed...

and my mum looks a bit depressed about this plan to Johor...

yeah, it's about that Pet Scan treatment...

i mean it's not like the doctor has confirmed any disease...

but as usual, she gets freaked out... *sigh*

and i'm the one who have to be strong for her...

this whole situation proves that mind controls our body thing...

you know when you start to think of the negative stuff, and your body start to feel weak...

you are not sick actually, but you are over reacting about it because your mind told you so...

and then one day you become helpless and need everybody around you to do things for you...

at one point you want sympathy and become an attention seeker...

even though there are bigger things happen out there, you manage to distract people with your so-called problem...

guess what? this is not a healthy thought... :P

you are actually healthy physically, but because you think too much you become weak literally...

so i have to tell her everyday to be positive...

it's a reminder to myself as well... :)

i'm a girl and of course i like being in the spot light...

i don't like to be ignored, to be left out no knowing what's going on...

i don't like people do things behind my back...

if there's no reply in text or call, i'll think about negative stuff...(hey, most of the girls feel that) :P

and even when people that are close to me pass by in front of me and not saying "hi" will hurt my feelings...

sound stupid sometime, but these little things do keep me alive...haha!

anyhow it's time to improve myself because not everything is about me...

of course i still want the attention...

it shows that people are still care about me...

but if i don't get it, i should do things for myself...

i should clear my head from negativity that will actually could only harm me...

and for now i always pray that my mum can stand up strong because i believe nothing is wrong...

if there's terrible things happen next, so what?! we'll face them...we always do...

she's already survived cancer, she should have been prepared and strong for the next challenge...

but still i always stand by her side, and understand more of her situation...

as long as we have faith in Allah, we can get through everything aite...

insyaAllah...

xoxo