stressful +_+

bonjour,

these few days have been so stressful to me...

soooooo many challenges in this month of Ramadhan...

from bad results to my grandma's sister is warded...

it is sad watching my mama tok lying on the bed helplessly...:'(

i don't know how to face people around me...

most of the time i show them that i'm strong enough to handle this...

but i'm not actually...

finally, i broke down into tears yesterday...

i didn't tell anyone about the pain inside...

i thought by ignoring the pain and focused on the happy stuff can make me happy...

guess what...? it didn't work out that way...

i only ignored the pain instead of facing it...

and now i fell like i'm half dead...

it's better of if i'm dead i think...

i'm so messed up right now and i don't know what to do...

i don't know who i can talk to...

i don't know if anyone still care, though...

xoxo