i'm afraid of...

bonjour,

i'm afraid of... :

- my fairy tales turn into nightmare

- losing the people i love

- people that are close to me forget about me

- losing the attention that i use to have

- one day i'm not an important person to other people

- at one moment, i'm too weak to fight

- the fact the i'll give up to things i care the most

- one time, i may reach limits and just don't give a damn anymore

- my thoughts of running away from everything i have now

- being away, i mean so far away

- the lies that people tell me (i LOVE the truth, and i DARE to hear it)

- losing the support structure among close people

- not being able to hear voices that i care

- the things that do not go to plans

- the trust that will be broken

- getting hurt until i cry non-stop

- not getting what i dream off

*sigh*

xoxo

Wedding Of Fairy Tales

bonjour,

i found this video, and i super like it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it's a wedding reception of Nur Nadia (daughter of founder of Naza Group)

the wedding is so grand, the details are superb, the flowers are gorgeous and the dresses are beautiful!!!!!!!

do watch it...! it just like fairy tales....

p/s : honey, can we have a wedding reception pretty much like this...? ;)

xoxo

everyday...

bonjour,

everyday life is filled in with the same old routine...

and we get bored doing that over and over again...

at this time, other challenges may arrive...

and they may change our mood and our reaction...

at this point, we may think boring chores are far better than those challenges...

we love to be in our comfort zone...

it may have been because we are scared of the fact we may get hurt...

sometimes life is so beautiful...

everything goes well professionally and personally...

but through out the joy, deep inside we are afraid...

afraid of the good things that may come to an end...

some people said, all good things will come to an end...(scary) ;(

life is a bit blurry sometimes =_=

in every happiness, there will be dark moments...

and at these moments, sometime we feel so down...

and sometime we do feel like we are better off dead...

we will say, "who cares if i'm gone"...+_+

well, at that dark period we can't think straight aite...

good day doesn't occur all the time, so does bad day...

that's why we have to appreciate everyday's life like it's going to be our last day...

and face any challenges with strong heart...

if there are only small matters that bug us, if u can just let it go, just let it go...

sometimes things are not worth of our attentions...

and whatever decisions we make in our life, do not regret them...

things happen for a reason...

perhaps, God have better plans for us...

insyaAllah...

xoxo

p/s : optimistic mood must be switched on all time ;)

lazy bum bum...;)

bonjour,

lately i've been a potato couch...

i just don't know what to do except for eating and sleeping...

well, let's just enjoy the holiday i have now while i can aite...

it is blissful!!!

at my room *wink*

this evening, i try to take my ass of the couch and hit the mall...

i was looking for a new handbag and a purse...

but guess what, i ended up buying a SHOES!

i love my new royal blue shoes...

i'm not going to update the picture of my shoes...

wait until i officially wear them...

maybe on a DATE with him to midvalley in the future... ;)

basically, it was a courtesy from my mom...

maybe she's pity seeing me being so unproductive at home...

so she bought the shoes just to cheer me up =)

thanks mom!

xoxo

let's hear it...

bonjour,

Fynn Jamal- 150 Juta

pretty nice song i have to say..

i like this part of the lyrics the most...

Aku lebih bengis dari sang naga

Tapi bisa nangis semata demi cinta

Suaraku keras tak berbahasa

Kerna aku rimas gedik mengada-ngada

Aku mudah baran tidak semena

Mana boleh tahan angin cemburu buta

Dan aku sengaja tunjuk keras kepala

Aku punya manja, kau saja boleh rasa

Rahsia kita berdua..

=)

such a cute lyrics and makes sense though...

you know you love me...LOL

xoxo

ILY ;)

bonjour,

i found this entry somewhere in the website...

"i love you" is the most heartfelt

"love ya" is more casual

"love you" is somewhere in between

nice...;p

xoxo

needy...

bonjour,

sometime some people desperately want the ATTENTION from others...

even from someone who couldn't care less about them...

well, it may look like a casual talk...

but when the casual talk become often,

well, you never know where it's heading...

maybe some people are lonely...

there's no one at home asking "How's your day?"

that's why they search for someone (basically anyone) just to feel less lonely...

others may feel uncomfortable with this act...

some people seriously need to find something else to do...

get busy and don't come between people's life...

if it's for the best, people wouldn't mind...

but sometime the attention needed can ruin others' life...

so behave yourself...

some people are being TOO MUCH sometime...

xoxo

eid ;)

bonjour,

i've been really exhausted these few days...

visiting from a house to another is tiring, but fun! ;)

eid is all about food, food and food!

lots of food for my little tummy...puff!

today, i'm taking day off...

no open houses today...

but it's not really a day off...

i mean people still visiting my house...

but i don't mind at all...it's cool!

GTG... another guess just arrived...

have fun guys! :D

xoxo

no worries...;)

bonjour,

whatever they say...

even their words are sweet...

i don't need to worry or jealous...

i don't need to feel insecure with others...

because you are mine...

and i know you love me...

only me...

xoxo

raya mood!

bonjour,

let's put aside any problem and focus on RAYA! ;)

get my hair done, my outfit done and i'm so ready for raya!

happy raya everyone!

xoxo

babbling part 2...

bonjour,

hari ni macam nak tulis entry dalam BM plak ler...

cume luahan hati dan jiwa yang kacau...erm...

this entry is in general...

it's about how people perceive life sometimes...;p

kadang2 kite tak suke orang buat sesuatu...

tapi orang tak semestinye dengar cakap kita...

kadang2 sakit hati bile orang buat benda kita tak suke...

tapi tak semudah tu kita nak ubah cara orang...

kadang2 sedih bile orang tak ikut telunjuk kita...

tapi kita simpan je dalam hati...

kadang2 marah macam mane pun hati kita...

tapi kita diam sebab tak nak keruhkan keadaan...

kadang2 orang tak tunjuk pun kasih sayang kat kita...

tapi kita setia je menanti harap2 orang tu sayang kat kita...

kadang2 kita cemburu tengok kemesraan orang lain...

tapi baik buat tak tahu saje takut orang meluat...

kadang2 kita bagi tau orang perasaan kita...

tapi orang bukannye dengar pun...

kadang2 kita mahukan perhatian yang lebih sikit..

tapi selalunya orang buat tak endah pun...

kadang2 kita cuba hormat orang...

tapi orang tak hormat pun kat kita...

kadang2 kita cuba rancang sesuatu istimewa...

tapi orang tak hargai langsung...

kadang2 kita bagi kepercayaan kita kat orang...

tapi orang tu langgar kepercayaan tu...

kadang2 saya penat bila hidup tak seperti yang saya mahu...

kadang2 saya penat beritahu orang ape yang saya suka dan tak suke, sebab orang tak endah...

kadang2 saya penat menjerit untuk dapatkan perhatian...

kadang2 saya penat menjadi seorang yang tak penting bagi orang lain...

kadang2 saya penat dengan kehidupan ni...

what a complex world we are living in...;p

xoxo

puff!

bonjour,

i have to face another problem after a problem and it just goes on and on and on.... *sigh*

xoxo

my crap ;p

bonjour,

yesterday me and my cousins (including my aunt and uncle as well for sure) went to Marrybrown...

it's kind of a birthday celebration for my cousin, Muhammad Aiman...

yes, he turned 13 yesterday...(still a kid, though ;p)

i have to say the food at marrybrown is not that bad...

it's a malaysian product...

maybe that is why it does not have a place at people's heart just like McD or KFC...

but seriously, you guys should try it... ;)

well, after dinner we went to buy popcorns...

gosh! i'm fulled already but those kid just couldn't get enough...!

then, we went to the night market...

nothing to buy, just wanna join the crowd...;p

back at home, i just found out that my baju kurung will finish on the raya's eve...=_=

i wish the tailor will finish altering my outfit A.S.A.P...

i still have lots of things to do for raya...

i have to trim my hair, bake cupcakes, do some desserts,etc...

i need to learn few recipes from my friend...

as people around me know that i'm not a good cook...terrible actually! ;p

puff! can't wait for raya! ;)

xoxo

black sheep!

bonjour,

owh yes, i am the black sheep of the family...

blame me for everything that goes wrong in the family...

i am the loser, the ungrateful and the misbehave girl...

humiliate me and scold me again and again if that's gonna satisfied your heart...

i can't fulfill people's expectation all the time...

why can't you just accept the fate even it's for the worse?

i know i accept it with open heart and optimist mind...

why can't you just do the same...???

call me a failure! yes, i'm a loser!

i just don't care anymore...

i'm done doing things just to please people...

i'm done living life just to fulfill family's dreams and hopes...

it's tiring okay...

gosh! i have my own life, my own dream...!

stop pushing me!

i need support not negative opinions...

pain pain, please go away....+_+

xoxo

p/s : sometimes we just need to take a step outside and look back at where we were and where we wanna be...

hye! ;)

bonjour,

lately, whenever i'm feeling down i listen to this song...

it's called, "Kissin' U" by Miranda Cosgrove...

here's the chorus...

'Cause when I'm kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I've been trying to find
Falls right into place
You're all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I'm kissing you

it just makes me smile again...=)

you guys should check it out...

xoxo

p/s: i feel so untouched now