hello December!

bonjour,

once the clock strucks 12 tonight, a new month starts...

wow! i can't believe there's only a month left before we say goodbye to 2010...

i better make a full use of it...

it means less eating but lots of love and praying!

i realize that towards the end of the month, i always get moody...

then it hits me that i've got PMS at the end of month (every month)...

so at this point, i really wish people around me to not toying around with my feelings...

because i get really sensitive... but i can get happy at the same time... owh hormones! *sigh*

it's hard to control my feelings, but i'll try...

you guys out there please take care of my feelings too...

just don't do unpleasant things that can make me mad...

if you know i don't like it, don't do it...( just want to be happy ;D )

lots of things to do before i hit the road to shah alam again...

yes, i'm going to be a selangorian again... can't wait! :)

i need to go shopping (yeah, right :p), do medical check ups again,etc...

before that, i want to appreciate my life here in KB...

evaluating my life makes me realize my main purpose so far...

from personal stuff to business stuff...

hope i can improve myself to be a better person...

insyaAllah...

till then, hello December!

please be nice to me :)

xoxo

CAT :)

bonjour,

CAT

class 2011

Alhamdulillah


xoxo

engagement ;)

bonjour,

there were two engagement ceremonies this week...

one was held in shah alam...

it's my second cousin's (Tarmizi), ceremony...

and the second one is my aunt's (Siti Noraini a.k.a Che We) ceremony in Kota Bharu...

i've been showered with questions like "Bile turn Hidayah plak?"

erk... i can only smile because the question should be answered by the man's side...

i mean he's the one who suppose to hand in the marriage...hehe

well, you guys enjoy the pictures aite...

xoxo

time after time

bonjour,

do you guys watch How I Met Your Mother (HIMYM)?

if you don't, maybe you should start watching it now! ;)

well, i like the series so much because it taught me a lot about friendship, love and life...

i watched this one particular episode called "Three Days of Snow" (Season 4, episode 13)

and i was really attracted with this quote,

"As we mature, the relationship matures with us"

it just got me thinking about how i develop to become a new me in presence...

it's not an easy job to be a better person...

i'd spent two years doing A-Level in Intec and i didn't achieve what people want me to achieve...

big deal, duhh! but i learnt a lot through out the years...

from back-stabbing, to fighting, to yelling, homesick, crying all night long, feeling like a fool, etc...

but i never regretted for wasting two years in Intec...

if i wouldn't be there, i wouldn't know how hard life is...

and trust me even we grew up, lots of us are still not that mature in making decision...

no matter how nice or naive that person, sometime that person can still screw up...

i've learnt form my past mistakes, and i pray and try not to repeat them...

if you say try, you know it means 100% effort...

now, i don't want to know any stories from the past...

what is done is done...

keep the memories to yourself... (because again, i don't wanna know)

because if you keep longing to the past, when will you move on...?

i've moved on and i guess that's a matured way to grow up...

once, we move on we can focus on the presence stuff...

that makes me appreciate of what i have now...

i'm happy of what i have now and i won't let it go...

so any people who want to come in between my life i said, fuck you... :P

just like in HIMYM, in the end they always find ways to solve things...

it's not impossible because happiness actually lies within ourselves :)

once we feel content, we basically can overcome everything...

p/s : i'm wearing henna! and now i feel like a bride-to-be! haha!

you dream a lot, hidayah :P

xoxo

24th November...

bonjour,

two years and still rock it!

let's pray for more years to come...

2008

2008-2010

happy anniversary!

xoxo

celcom, argggh!

bonjour,

i've just arrived my hometown from KL...

i'll post about my days in KL soon...

but now i'm really pissed off with celcom!

i can't text or call people usually noon onwards...!

it will be back to normal usually late evening...

but no promises to that, i'll keep my fingers cross...

how am i suppose to reply texts and return calls...??

i can go online, but it doesn't mean everyone is online...

so i can't tell all people that my celcom got problem :(

but i realize i'm not the only one who face this...

most of the people i know who are living in KB are facing this problem too...

sometime i still can receive call and text...

if i miss any of those calls, i'll try to use my home number...

so don't be surprised if any of you receive call starting 09 at the front number...

but still, i want celcom to upgrade their systems!

what if there's emergency??? OMG! such a pain in the ass!

xoxo

p/s : i've just updated tumblr. go through every fresh pages of hidayahkhazani.tumblr.com

lately...

bonjour,

it's been a week i haven't posted anything at this blog...

well, i mostly express my feelings in tumblr...

you know just a quick and brief update there...

lately, nothing interesting happened to me...

except for yesterday i met my friend, Allia...

we talked, we gossiped, etc... (you know just the usual thing that girls do)

suddenly she popped out a question,

"Nape ada perempuan suke jadi perampas? Allia tak pernah pun jadi perampas orang. Kalo Allia tahu org dah berpunya, Allia cepat2 undur diri."

well Allia, not everyone are nice...

single girls like guys in a relationship because they are envy...

just don't let them win, aite...

you just need to be confident...

i remember a quote saying, "Love me or leave me."

i think that quote is from Jennifer Lopez...

see how confident she is ; she know it's the guy lost if he lets her go ;p

then, it also hit us that sometime when people have beautiful things, people tend to find ugly things...

when they have ugly things, they seek out beautiful things...

when are they going to appreciate things, huh...

hope they make good choices! ;)

i'll be going to KL soon for an engagement ceremony...

but lately i'd been a lazy bum bum...

i haven't packed yet! OMG!

it guess i have to hang around with my family 24-7 when i'm there...

there may not be a chance for me to do things for myself...

but never mind, at least i'm going to be with a positive group :)

start a day with a smile, peeps!

xoxo

expressing myself...

bonjour,


what a boring day...

i've got nothing to do at home seriously...

except for one thing ; evaluating myself...

i'm tired of the drama evolve, i guess...

when we try to express our happiness, some people dislike it...

when we try to express our anger, people also hate it...

so how to be true to yourself...?

maybe i should just keep it to myself...

you know that if you tell problem to people,

80% won't listen and 20% are glad you have it...

how cruel is that...

yeah, i'm nobody ; nothing special to people i guess *whatever*

so now i'm expressing myself in the blog...

the unknown and virtual world that i've created...

and also in tumblr ; hidayahkhazani.tumblr.com

and sometime in Twitter...

in tumblr, i can post something short but it's something how i feel at that very moment...

sometime it's very lame to post in the Facebook... *whatever*

maybe i should just deactivate Facebook...

social network sometime can kill us...

stalking people, etc can bring misunderstanding...

so right now, i'm being optimistic... ;)

i don't want to waste energy on the things that have no benefits...

i've also stay true to the quote, "Don't make decision when you are mad"

and i like the quote from How I Met Your Mother,

"Why get into a fight if we can avoid it...?"

but you know everything has a limit...

don't wait until your heart explodes...

till then, have a nice day peeps!

make good choices! ;)


xoxo

life is like that ;p

bonjour,

maybe this is just my theory...

or perhaps it's because my hormones are unstable lately ;)

but how i wish sometime people would just respect me...

you know but not doing things that i hate for example...

sometime we give a lot of hints, but they just ignore them...

and sometime they do that just to tease us...

they do it on purpose just to provoke us...

i know maybe lots of people always hear me babbling about this...

but this is what i'm facing all the time...

it's annoying when people keep doing things that we don't like...

maybe i should just stop respecting them too...

you know that respect needs to be earned...

i don't wanna be a bitch that damaged people's life...

i know i maybe not an angel that can keep everyone satisfied...

but at least i try to respect people...

and i would like to see efforts as well among other people...

because it is tiring to do it alone...

but you know what, nothing is going to bring me down...

not a chance... *wink*

i have my comot close to me...

and family that support me all the time...

i've learnt that we should not make decision when we are mad...

so peace out!

xoxo

they are kinda sweet ;)

bonjour,

as i was having lunch just now, i watched encore telecast of The Amazing Race Asia (TARA)...

i'm pretty much a big fan of TARA because i want to support Malaysian team...

they were two teams from Malaysia ; Ethan & Khairie and Ivan & Hilda...

but i adore Ivan & Hilda...

even though Hilda is quiet a control freak, but her husband always listen to her ;D

he carried her backpack, patient with his wife yelling at him and even sewed a shirt to complete a task for the next clue...

on the latest episode, Hilda was terrified to do bungee jumping...Gosh!

but then her husband didn't scold her at all...

then, they switched task by doing the swing...

which actually as scary as bungee jumping except they could do it together at one time...

they did it! successfully!

and Hilda said, "As long as I'm with you I'm not scared"

it made me go, awwwwwhhh!!

but then, they were the last team to arrive and they were eliminated... :(

Hilda said that it was her fault that they lose the race...

but Ivan quickly said that it was not her fault at all...

Ivan then commented,

being married is about balancing each other's strengths and weaknesses. that's explains why we are together. there's a bigger race out there. that race is life ;)

he's so calm and collected, aite... :D

he accepted fate and didn't get into a fight like many couples did...

even though he is 5 years younger than his wife...(amazing,huh)

i don't see them as a BORING married couple...

despite they had been married for 14 years already...wow!

and now there's only 1 Malaysian team left...

i hope they can make it to the top 3 at least ;)

xoxo